grilling

i don't know why we can't seem to get the stupid grill to work, but it failed us again and i am ready to chuck it off of the deck. despite that, we had a really good weekend. friday night andrew and i sat up talking and having drinks really late. we managed to get up and out of the house by 2 the saturday. soccer taco then liz and i went to the grocery then steaks and drinks on the deck which andrew got so nice and clean in a very short amount of time. today has been a total waste, but sometimes i really love days of absolutely nothing. i do have a little over one month before heading to jax, so i would like to get on a good health kick and surprise mom and dad with some weight loss and extra energy. i think we can do it. i just really need to plan out some different goals to incorporate into my days each week. so here goes to begin tomorrow...

1. stop drinking cokes. just stop. none. make some iced tea. make some sugar free kool-aid. it doesn't matter how bad i want one - DO NOT DRINK. it's not as though they are going to stop making them while i'm taking a break. just drink something else.
2. get my butt to the gym AT LEAST 4 days this week. preferably 6, but i'll be happy with 4. and really good gym workout. not just barely going on the elliptical. mix it up and add in some weights.
3. do a free weight routine here. 2 sets of 12 exercises for arms and back. some squats and some ab work. do this at least three days. do on tues, thurs and sun. in addition to weight lifting at the gym.
4. do the yoga and pilates tapes. alternate through the week beginning on tuesday. who cares if andrew sees me doing them. just do them. i'm so unflexible i can barely paint my toenails. gross.
5. vitamins every single day. all the supplements. take at the right times with a big glass of water.
6. good long shower every night. exfoliate. skincare and teeth. feet and nails. flossing and whitening strips.
7. really healthy foods this week. super healthy. no french fries. no sub sandwiches. no crap. oatmeal for breakfast. fruits and veggies. lean cuisine for lunch. lots of water all day.
8. walk around the track at work one time on my lunch break. or on a 15 minute break. but do it at least once a day. it doesn't have to be fast, but i have to make one complete circle.
9. sleep. hopefully the working out will make me sleepy. start weaning off the nyquil. take the natural sleep aid as needed. get in bed by 11. read or daily show, but be in bed and ready to relax.
10. get up with enough time to make it to work on time. should be no problem since the showering is supposed to be going on at night and i'm going to bed earlier and weaning off the nyquil. just be up by 7:30.

that's good for this week. i need to picture myself in a cute dress on my birthday. if i can do these things from now until my birthday, i think i can reward myself with a few cute dresses. i just can't imagine how good it will feel to lose some of this weight and get in better shape. i have to keep envisioning the cute green dress. shopping in the regular sizes. being able to wear tank tops in the summer. not feeling like i have to wear a cardigan over everything (like that hides anything at all anyway).
starting 10 march 2009. 38 days until florida. 56 days until 30. i so want to be happy on my 30th birthday. i want pictures with people. i want to dance around. i want to wear cute new clothes. i want to be tan. i want to feel good and healthy.