plan A

two things influencing writing today...
1. listening to this american life from 2/23 about abandoning plan A. i feel like i've been doing lots of what might have been (had i done better in school, had i not felt the need to drink my face off every night for year after year, had i been the kind of person who felt the need to exercise every day instead of the need to eat fast food every single day). i don't know if dealing with all of katie's mess has made me think about this more. probably - i hate going through all the trash of her life, but there is something cathartic about taking all of these items that surrounded her horrible life and throw them in the trash.

2.received an e-mail about nablopomo. i want to do it. 31 days. i feel like i never finish anything and i don't want to be that person anymore. the theme given for the month of march is giving (up). i think this kind of ties into #1. interesting to think about what i have given up, but really how much happier i am now than i ever have been in my entire adult life. so despite being disappointed in myself on so many levels, i feel very optimistic.

piddling diary moment: really good weekend - friday night b-day celebration for chris. enjoyed the band at the pilot light much more than i thought i would. managed to not spend tons of money, smoke tons of cigarettes or feel horrible. saturday a & i met liz and some others at hong kong palace and had wonderful lunch and then shopped around a bit. ordered some new glasses and bought some $9 boots. went home and took a long nap. made hamburgers with a & watched w. today, went to see slumdog millionaire. started the cleaning on katie's house. picked up some dinner from falafel hut and was semi-productive cleaning the house tonight. am going to be in bed by 12:30.